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How i started facefucking
Hi all, well a bit strange to start talking about myself and sharing some things about myself with you. But I thought it is essential when i make a site on facefucking what the meaning of it is to me.
My BackgroundIn starting of high school i have never been really popular, so boys were not chasing me at all. Till 18 i never really kissed a boy, but longed for it. I think from about 18 i got in puberty and started feeling sexual things. I had nobody to practice with so was a lot online. Surfing around website, watching movies. I was so curious to see everything, what was going on and what i got to do. when i went to school I already longed to get back home and site behing my computer and watch sexual things. I don't think thats really normal but i later met people online who did about the same.
Almost from the beginning from when i saw pictures of sex, i got fascinated with oral sex. The look of it, of seeing a man cum. I fantasized a lot about that and masturbated countless times on that.
I sometimes watched deepthroat or facefucking movies as well. It turned me on a lot, dont know why, i felt it a bit sick, i mean the man is really in control. So i think now it must be a certain bit submissive side of myself. I fantasized about strong men, mostly older i think. But still i never had sex.
At a certain point i decided that i wanted to learn it myself , i had seen some movies of heather brooke (shes the woman of ideepthroat) with a flexible dildo. I was fascinated how she did it and also her man :-)
Buy a dildoThen one afternoon I decided to buy a dildo. I lived back then in Groningen and went to this christine leduc store at the gedempte zuiderdiep in Groningen. I remember I was so scared. I thought about ordering one by mail, but the risk of my parents discovering the package was to big for me. So went there after school, i remember my heart pounding in my chest, fuck. I biked by 3 times i think, to be really sure there were no classmates or familiar people in the neighbourhood.
First try
I went home, biked like crazy and couldnt wait to be back home. I sneaked into the home, thank god parents were not home and went to my room. Locked my door.
I remember unpacking it, as if it was best present i ever got :-) It was packed in strong plastic so had to get scissors to get it of. Hold it in my hand, felt jelly like, so cool i finally had it. The same as i ahd seen in the movies online! I made it a bit wet with my saliva and brought it in my mouth. Damn felt big already like that and licked it, thought of doing this to a man. And then brought it bit back in my throat. I ahd to gag like hell! It really disappointed me, not at all like the girls online. I couldn't do it, I had to vomit, tears in my eyes, i felt soo bad! That brought me bac to my senses. Tried again but the same. No difference. Went online to talk with a woman who had some experiences with it. And she advised me to relax first a bit, play a bit with yourself on your bed and then try with the dildo.
In the following month i was able to get it in every day. and got used to the feeling and could move a bit. Especially after the first time i really ahd a sore throat, but I got used to it. I experimented during the month, pushing it in deeper with the few days it went easier. I couldnt imagine how difficult it was the first day! After the second month i could put it in my mouth and quite easily swallow it in my throat.
I made it rougher every day, i imagined a man holding my head and fucking my mouth. How powerful that would feel, was curious for the taste, the power coudlnt wait to try! i was 18 then and never even kissed with a man! I felt not so sexy, from 18 18 i had quite a lot of pimples and glasses. SO wasnt the girl guys liked. I was quite flatchested, in contrary to many other girls in holland my age.
I then decided to but a more realistic dildo with more like the structure of a real penis and stronger material. The flexible dildo was to flexible to really represent a mans penis when its really hard. Went to the same store again, buying a more resembling dildo. I picked a very, sexy 9 inch vibrator. (i had been looking on the website of the store for more than a month already which would be the dildo that i wanted to buy for myself). When i walked in i immediately saw it and took it. When i tried it for the first time at home, it was bit of a deception, since it was not to easy with this dildo, it didnt adjust so easily to form of my throat. SO it was a bit harder, not so hard as my first time with the other dildo, but still difficult. I mostly used this dildo to practice now and sometimes the other (when io did that it felt so easy :-)) think its all relative (getting philiospohical here). That i had the vibrator in my pussy and the long double one in my throat. Playing like this can be quite addictive though!
Then i really felt like i was ready for a real man, every inch of my body wanted it. Wanted to taste a man. Watched movies online every day, but that made the urge even worse. But at school i was not so popular and didnt want people gossiping about me. one friend of mine from school once sucked of a boy after going out in the streets and every body still calls her a slut. It is so bad how people judge other people i hate that! But didnt wnat the same.
I didnt want to go online, because who know you might meet, so didnt know what to do. I was quite insecure as well, since i had no real experience with men at all. So nothing really happened. My parents wouldnt let me go out much, so i kept playing with myself. Watching movies fucking my face with the dildo thinking it was a man, that hold my head.
Spain
That summer of 2007 my parents allowed me to go to spain with some friends. I was surprised by it, because they were always very protective but i think the parents of my friends told them it was ok for some girls of 18 to go on a vacation together. We went to Salou a place in Spain, bit of a party city in July. And we booked in april, couldnt wait to go and just knew that it would happen then. That i will have sex with someone. I coudlnt wait, i even went to the doctor on my own to get a recipe for the pill. I started that in may, so it would be good on vacation. I got lenses, without telling my parents! Got rid of those bad glasses. I still wore them to school, since my aprnets are very against lenses (they ruin your eyes) but i wanted to look good on vacation. SO sometimes at home tried the lenses, it's bit the same as learning to face fuck. lol, you might think shes crazy. But the first time i tried to get them in, my eyes just kept blinking, couldnt stop, eyes with tears took my half an hour every day to get them in. But its so eas now lol
I remember we took the bus to spain.
I decided to get up and just make a quick walk outside and just buy some things for myself, pulled on a shorts and my tevas. Make myself feel good. Bit shopaholic :-) First i bought a nice white bikini felt a bit better lol, then bought a nice short black skirt (didnt take one since my mother checked all my bags) and at last bought some sexy heels, my parents never let me wear those, i wanted them now, black ones. Sometimes i wore my moms at home when they were not at home, but i was no experienced heel walker. I felt a bit better and went to the appartment and thought, you know what i'll just go out with my friends. So i called them, but couldnt reach them. But didnt want to stay at the appartment, i'll just go walk around on my own. I took a nice shower, shaved my pussy and legs completely. I wanted to look good tonight! I put on a thong, my new black skirt, my heels and a nice tight fitting white shirt.
Going out
I walked out the door and im not exagerating within 5 minutes some guys said "hey whats you name? where are you going?" really i never had that before that guys just walk up to me. I felt quite flattered! I was like im Kim, and im looking for my friends, but cant reach them. SO they invited me over with them! I had attention from guys! WOW maybe my avcation wouldnt be too bad! We went to this bar and they bought me drinks, we were dancing, i had a great night. I was dancing and then a guy went dancing with me.
That one special guy
One guy i hadnt seen before, he was quite a bit older maybe 30 orso i dont know, he touched my body while dancing, i was a bit drunk, it felt like a rush so good, for the first time a guy touching me like that. . i was dancing with my ass to his dick and could feel him. I was scared but excited! he touched my sides my breasts in the middle of the dancefloor over my clothes.
He left me there sitting in the toilet, i felt wasted but so fullfilled, so sexy. . .
I said them goodbye, it had been so intense and walked of into the night to my appartment. . .
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